my r/s has soured to a point it seems almost impossible to redeem. in fact, i dont quite think i'd end up friends w him even if we split up. yea, that's how bad its got. both of us cant come up w a solution to things. he's keeping himself busy and to me, that's just his way of avoiding me. feels like may08. he just wants to find an escape and not bother. then seriously, why bother holding on even.

haa. i still dont see a solution. if this is it, then let it be.

i always say that ppl have to take charge of their lives. but this time round, wo zhen de ren ming le. i've lost all energy to fight, even though its smth i wish i could hold on to.

i did think that he was the one, but time and again, im made to believe 'stories' and 'reasons' i really dont quite believe. lies. lack of trust. now, we dont even speak properly to each other. haa. its the first time any r/s of mine has turned out this way. its the first time im faced w problems regarding an 'ex-gf'.

i dont know what to make out of it. this is not my forte.