justin lo's mei li zhi zui has been making me cry over and over again. i think the lyrics are beautiful, and some of it really speaks of what i want to say. i've never cried so hard before in my life. im trembling. and i cant control myself, let alone my tears. i dont know why its so painful.

he was the guy who really made me happy, and probably no one else i meet this life will be able to make me as happy. but he also brought me such misery. that pain in my heart still refuses to go away. im starting to find it hard to breathe.

i know there's a part of me that wishes that i could bump into him on the streets. but there's the other part of me that tells me i shd quietly walk away if that happens.

damn the swollen puffy eyes. i think im gonna be dehydrated or anorexic soon, from all that crying and all that not eating.