things havent been going well in the family. on the surface, all seems well though. but every single night, i face the same things over and over again. mom goes on about this, that and the other. every single thing raises her radar and she suspects this and that. i got so irritated i told her she could jolly well go be a scriptwriter if she could "make up" the stories so well with just a few facts sandwiched in between. there is just a faint line between truth and lies, and i no longer know how to tell the difference. perhaps that is why i let the truth emerge by itself, rather than hallucinate about what is and what isn't. its just too tiring on my tiny brain. but no! mom isn't like me! for every single night of the past 2 weeks i've been hearing the same things back and forth, to the extent that im shutting out most of the information coming from her now. on one hand, i want to be there to listen cos i know no one else would listen to her. but on the other, it is getting too much for me to handle, and im getting so sick of staying at home. i dont know how long i can hold on.

then there's the stupid story of the ex. and all the ridiculous 'coincidences' and whats not. its getting a lil too far fetched, and im getting irritated. maybe by the fact that it even happened, maybe by the fact that such relationship saboteurs exist. i dont see what she has to gain even if we do break up. from what i see, she's probably just getting further and further from zk with all that she's doing. oh well, its between him and her. and the next time it involves me again, i'll snap.