every day is a pain to go through. i wish it could be easier.

dan said, "i thot u guys look like the sort that would never break up." well dan, i thought so too.

it only hurt even more to hear mom say that she doesn't dislike zk at all. but for daddy, it'd take time for him to accept. today he can leave me for his career and friends, in future, what would he leave me for? i hurt myself. and i hurt mommy as well. she couldnt understand why zk would leave me after being tgt for so long. she really let us be cos she thought he made me happy. after hearing everything, she thinks there is someone else, just like everyone else. im sorry mommy. i couldnt fight and keep someone i love. and im in this state now, making u feel worried and all. but i cant pick myself up. not yet.

everybody's telling me that he is interested in someone else. but i choose to believe him when he says that he is not. i'll only believe them when i see someone else in his arms.

my birthday wish has never been simpler. im sure zk knows what my wish is. he just cant fulfill it. not now, maybe never ever.