Some things are better left unsaid.

I hate ppl who lie. Absolutely hate. Of all people, why you? Why?

Tears. Isn't that what you always say? Haa. Tears are flowing but my heart's numbed. It has stopped beating, for you.



i wish nic could open up just abit more. im not trying to be a hypocrite. to hurt him then turn arnd n care for him. i just hope to know that he's fine, that's all. sigh.

"when you go, would you even turn to say, i don't love you, like i loved you yesterday."

browsed thru the songs in Ares, found some old faith hill songs i so love. Its Your Love never fails to remind me of siyuan and all that we once had, The Way You Love Me is a catchy number that's hardly Faith Hill, Breathe always calms and soothes my mind. no doubt my all time fave.

"its your love, just does something to me, sends a shudder right through me, can't get enough.. but if you wonder, what's the spell i'm under... it's your love."

haa.. beautiful ballads just evoke so much emotions huh? not in a good mood after all that w nic.

yes, im soft hearted. yes, im always giving in to limzhikai not knowing the reason why. no, i'll not give this r/s up to be w nic. no, i do not LOVE nic. mutual liking, maybe. love? no. the person i think nic and hazei are most suited for each other, and what haze is willing to sacrifice for him, i don't even come close. why get ourselves trapped in this weird dilemma?

read ah ma's blog and realized almost all her entries had smth like "I AM SO PROUD OF LAOGONG!!" haa.. maybe that is what limzhikai hopes i'd do in my blogs too? will that show that i "appreciate" him then? honestly, as i read ah ma's blog, i really have the impression that they are sucha loving couple. but personally, im just not one who outwardly expresses my LOVE for my bf. i do appreciate him and all his little actions really touch me. even if he's #10 on my priorities, i know i'd always be his top 3 priorities. no matter how nasty i treat him, he blows up and apologizes after that. (blow up is not the focus, the apology is.) i can be the lousiest gf ever, and he still strives to be my best bf. (so far that is. and its not tough, considering that i had a bf who cheated on me.) i treasure limzhikai, our r/s, and all the little details that paved our way so far. it wasn't easy to stay tgt, so i'll treasure this even more.

read bout a gf who has had 5 bfs. she's really pretty, bambi eyes, chiselled face and whats not. all 5 bfs cheated on her. so she thinks there's smth wrong w herself, and she wrote an entire blog entry about how she treated her 5 bfs. all 5 bfs were treated v differently. from a control freak, she became a heck-care-gf, then a ex-gf-hater, then i cant rmr alr. but all the time, her r/s ended cos of a third party. really makes me wonder if guys can even be trusted, AT ALL.