Chris commissioned yday! hurrays! 6 mths and he'd be a FREE man. Not man, he's an officer. Dinner and tea party afterward was simple and nice. Ohh, a cock Simpson's game left us with stitches. Everything went well, till I realized that Chris was down with fever and he couldn't make it for filming today. I informed everyone arnd 11pm, only to receive replies from E and A. Ookay, doesn't matter rite? At 1am, there was this massive SMS spam from A (no I don't mean it in the bad sense), and they were trying to find a replacement hoping to film today. I wanna get it over and done with too, so fine. At 2am, all of us have declared our white flags cos we seriously couldn't find anyone. But C was still finding, and all the group mates didn't know if filming was gonna continue as usual. IF she does find someone at that wee hour of the night, it meant that filming would still be on. It also meant that I had to pick up the cam from darius early in the morning, and it also meant that I had to trouble darius to charge the cam for me etc etc. On top of that, I had to make sure that the other members of the group did not find their own activities cos I told them earlier that "filming MIGHT be cancelled". At 2am, and nothing was confirmed. That pissed me off. Deciding that I couldn't be waiting up all night, especially if I am supposed to pick up the cam from darius in the morning, I msged C to tell her to give me a reply by 230am, or else we'd postpone filming. Fair enough, this time round she replied me, "Ok". I waited till 220am, and knocked out. My bad. But I was actually so worried bout the proj I waked at 8am and checked my phone, only to find out that there was NO REPLY from C. So what was it now? At 8am, I still cant tell the rest of the members a confirmed answer? Furious as I was, I simply msged the rest to cancel it. I admit, my tone was a little overboard, and it was obvious I displayed annoyance towards C, but really, I swear, I couldn't help it. My earliest reply came at 1pm, after I msged C, "why u nv reply me!!!" It wasn't the best way to communicate my ideas across, I agree. I need anger management classes. DAMN.

I may be really selfish to do this, but from now onwards I will choose to do projects with people who are responsible for their own actions. This not only benefits me, it also benefits our 'frienship'. Its just like how people say not to lend your friends money. I think it applies to working tgt as well.

On a side note, I really wish he could just open his heart to her again. I'm female, and I understand how she feels. It's painful.