Family
My dad's giving me a tough time with his drunkard behavior as usual, depriving me of my sleep. I hardly get 3 hours of sleep a day, and when I finally get a day of rest for about 4 hours, he comes home and takes away ALL of it. If I had the strength to throw him off the balcony, I would.

Boyfriend
LimZhikai has not been much of a help. After a torturous night, and a screwed up morning, he didn't make things any better. I haven't even began whining about anything, and he alr buzzed me off with 'Why are you so edgy?'. Fine, I'm being edgy here. I can't find anything better to do with my time other than to whine and complain and cry my guts out in the middle of the night. With tonnes of work and projs to complete, I choose to wallow in self pity and pick on my life. Good one, LimZhikai. You made me realized how moronic I was to even think that you'd listen.

School
Rosemary's a BITCH. That's a total understatement, and everyone in her class can testify for that. Just for her classes, I've spent the past few nights on our Class Facil Video and doing reviews for other groups. On top of that, I wake at 6am so as to reach school so fucking early the library isn't open. (Oh, that's because we have to submit work before class starts, or it won't be accepted.) I can write an essay on how Rosemary is a bloody bitch who looks worse than the cleaning lady at my voiddeck every morning. I believe even my mom, with her bedhead and all, can look 10 times better than Rosemary. On top of that, there are endless projects and assignments, of which I just fail to keep up with. I may churn out the assignments in time, but readings? I'm just lagging far far behind.



Thanks Nic. Without you last night and today, I would have just broken down.



Chris commissioned yday! hurrays! 6 mths and he'd be a FREE man. Not man, he's an officer. Dinner and tea party afterward was simple and nice. Ohh, a cock Simpson's game left us with stitches. Everything went well, till I realized that Chris was down with fever and he couldn't make it for filming today. I informed everyone arnd 11pm, only to receive replies from E and A. Ookay, doesn't matter rite? At 1am, there was this massive SMS spam from A (no I don't mean it in the bad sense), and they were trying to find a replacement hoping to film today. I wanna get it over and done with too, so fine. At 2am, all of us have declared our white flags cos we seriously couldn't find anyone. But C was still finding, and all the group mates didn't know if filming was gonna continue as usual. IF she does find someone at that wee hour of the night, it meant that filming would still be on. It also meant that I had to pick up the cam from darius early in the morning, and it also meant that I had to trouble darius to charge the cam for me etc etc. On top of that, I had to make sure that the other members of the group did not find their own activities cos I told them earlier that "filming MIGHT be cancelled". At 2am, and nothing was confirmed. That pissed me off. Deciding that I couldn't be waiting up all night, especially if I am supposed to pick up the cam from darius in the morning, I msged C to tell her to give me a reply by 230am, or else we'd postpone filming. Fair enough, this time round she replied me, "Ok". I waited till 220am, and knocked out. My bad. But I was actually so worried bout the proj I waked at 8am and checked my phone, only to find out that there was NO REPLY from C. So what was it now? At 8am, I still cant tell the rest of the members a confirmed answer? Furious as I was, I simply msged the rest to cancel it. I admit, my tone was a little overboard, and it was obvious I displayed annoyance towards C, but really, I swear, I couldn't help it. My earliest reply came at 1pm, after I msged C, "why u nv reply me!!!" It wasn't the best way to communicate my ideas across, I agree. I need anger management classes. DAMN.

I may be really selfish to do this, but from now onwards I will choose to do projects with people who are responsible for their own actions. This not only benefits me, it also benefits our 'frienship'. Its just like how people say not to lend your friends money. I think it applies to working tgt as well.

On a side note, I really wish he could just open his heart to her again. I'm female, and I understand how she feels. It's painful.



I don't like this keyboard of mine, that's why I'm always blogging on my lappie. Well, I'll just have to make do today.

I've been quarrelling w zk for the past 3 days, and don't even ask me why. He just irks me, puts me off. With the workload I have now, I'm more prone to snap at anyone, not just him. Too bad he's always the one hitting the wrong buttons. Sometimes I very much feel like telling him, "Bingo, you made me pissed again." Due to some miscommunication and warped up arguments, I ended up a grouchy and desolated old maid. Not to mention, I gotta handle the obtrusive behavior of zk, as well as apologize to those I cancelled out on. Fine, I got myself a dinner date and a supper date. But that didn't help minimize that urge to spew profanities whenever I'm telling someone about my screwed up Saturday. LimZhiKai, if you haven't realized, I really hate you for doing what you did. (Oh, that's even if he bothers to read this. Heck, who cares!)

Came home after dinner to realize that parents left for their rendezvous weekend again. Presuming that I'd be home late, both of them found plans and happily went off to enjoy a Sat of their own. Lonely daughter comes home to find a lonely Lex, again, thanking God that I always have Lex for company when I have absolutely nobody to turn to. Perhaps this is all a blessing in disguise, for I found peace to concentrate on my never-ending readings and projects. Enough time spent on whining bout a damned Sat. Back to Books.