i was upset, cos zk slept thru the whole day and we did nothing. felt that i could have done more in a day without dad in sg. could have met gfs, gone for coffee or smth. not that i dislike his company. i understand that he's shagged. but i also believe that its cos his body clock has been screwed up by his job and new hobby.

i am upset. cos zk screwed himself and me up by throwing ash in my mom's basin without clearing. now mom wants to force me to give this up. i cant save him, i cant save myself.

i really feel that im on the verge of giving up (again). so many things going on, and i dunno if its even worth it. he really doesnt make me feel like its worth it to put up a fight for this r/s.