FHM girl next door 2007 is up again. yess i've friends in there again. unexpected frens. but this year's contenders seem lacklustre to previous years. wassup with little girls in bikinis acting sexy or raunchy huh?? dun see a babe in there that catches my eye...

i've officially graduated from pole1 after all that spinning. pole2 focuses on all that abs and arms and what's not. i swear i look more like a gancheong monkey than a sexy lady climbing that pole. sitting cross legged is no big deal. sitting crossed legged on the pole and falling backwards is a whole lot of deal. i wanna lose weight, build arm strength. for once i thank my fat thighs. they give me enough grip on the pole. haa.. i love boomerang. i think it looks damn nice. im so gonna train till i perfect it.

zk's getting on my nerves at times. and i know im getting on his. but im too tired to sort things out.

::i have found my exit. i've walked out with as much pride i could hold on to. i've done all i could. i've done what i should. no regrets. probably up till now he still doesnt get me. he never will then. sometimes things are too late to salvage. maybe im slow. i took too long to realise de root of de problem. if things were settled earlier would it be better? if there wasnt another in the picture would it be fine? we never know. n we never would know.::

we lie to ourselves cos the truth freakin hurts.

after so long, i just miss being pampered.

with different ppl..... its just different.