i've successfully managed to curb my shopping and saved precious moolahs~!! not gonna disclose how much, but im gonna slowly accumulate all these granny money and one day it might end up alot alot!

cant help but feel irritated when dear sees all the negativity. or when he tries to interfere in my social circle. he has all the rights to dislike my frens, but i dun like the idea of giving up a fren cos my bf's sensitive. i know many wouldnt mind losing a fren cos of their bf/gf, but not me. honestly, im still uncertain about this whole r/s, whether we'd survive the test of time, or simply if i even see a future w him. the whole time we've been tgt, hasnt given me enough confidence to think about "future". times when we quarrel like today, i really feel like telling him "that's it. i cannot take it anymore." but i refrained myself. i will try to change, i hope he will too.

all that dear says of the future, be it the idea of sharing a car, or the idea of being tgt many yrs later, or just the idea of the holiday in the near future, it really excites me. cos im looking forward to it, n every single day is like a step closer to the goal. but there's always a lil devil in me saying that it might all end up as empty promises, and i've nv been lucky in fulfilling my wishes or dreams. do i trust him? not totally i guess. someone told me its not whether i see a future with him, its whether i want a future with him. cos if i want it, i'll work for it, and i'll have it. but my belief aint that strong...

bebe means baby. means inconvenient love. means essence of love. means warm fuzzy love. means im yours.