u'll not get ur idea across to me, cos to me, concern n precaution does not equate to control. perhaps u didnt know how screwed it was staying at home facing my dad today, u didnt hear of my day like other frens have, or u didnt know that i was darn bored n pissed with my studies. i just needed someone to chat w, relax n have a coffee. nic was the only human i was meeting today other than dad n mom. i think u forgot that i need some space of my own. to do what i want to do, to meet who i want to meet. n i think i especially need this space when im cooped up at home most of the time. i just need a breather, n the last thing i need is for one to control this little bit of time i have out of studies. lest i get reclusive. i dont see it ur way, neither do u see it my way. u're still waiting to see if anything happens, n if smth does happen, it'll prove u right again. yarh? its like u're waiting to see me fall. just so that u can hope that i'll learn my lesson. but time n again, u say that i havent. that's just the way i am. i dun see people out to harm me in any way. cos i dun seek to harm them in any way. as usual, i cry cos i do not know how to put my thoughts into words. i cry cos i really want u by my side. cos i always wish that a hug would save me explanations. a hug would bring a tear to a smile. i nv knew i was that vulnerable to u. crybabymad. im so used to tears.