quite a few have asked me if its worth it doing all that for him. research n do up his essay, send it to sch for him. truth is, i don't know. but im not complaining. nic n haze saw me smsing the whole time, n thot i was smsing zk. haha. it was marcus darling. there are times i just wanna tell zk smth, perhaps smth that made me happy or upset or whatsoever. but i type the msg n delete it. cos i dun wanna bother him at work. nic is right, i don't know what goes on in his work, he doesnt know what i do out there. after a long day, we're both tired. chat on the phone, share a few stuffs that happened that day, n off to bed. the next time i hear from him is probably the following night. i rmr nic asking me if i'd prefer a working or studying bf. i'd prefer it if my bf shared my lifestyle i guess. if im studying, he's studying. if im working, he's working. its so much more convenient that way. then another qn, "u dun even get to talk to him, see him, don't u question what he's doing? is this the sorta communication u wanna share?" "well, this isnt the kind of communication i wanna share, but its the best we can make do with. i dun question, doesnt mean i dun feel insecure. but a job is a job my dear.. is this what i want? now u are making me wonder..." there are times when loneliness sets in and i start to think.. start to think about the past, the present, the future.. if there is any.