i really think sy shd leave me alone.. is this all that is left of us? i don't know.. but i dun like the feeling im getting.. doubt we'd ever be just friends. i cant conjure any meaning to his actions and words, and i have no idea what he wants out of him, me, us.

read some of zk's archives in his blog. sweet i must say. and i always ask, how did such a perfect love go wrong? i thot perfect things stay..... well, perfect.. or at least, i tell myself that things were once that perfect, flawless, dreamy. the rest of the time, just try to make things better. time will nv turn back for me, none of those would be redone and i'd never get the experiences like i did, but if im gonna stay there and not move out of that dream, its stupid.

but the older i grow, the less emotion upheavals i experience, either cos im more resigned to fate, or superficiality no longer holds any meaning to me. i was nv obsessed w tangible objects of love, now all the more i disregard such things. esp words. i realised words really do go with the wind. they mean what they mean, only for the period of time they are articulated from one's mouth. afterwhich, those words disappear into thin air, carrying w them all the promises, all the hope and all the love they expressed. i cant bring myself to trust ppl the way i used to.