i dunno if its cos im putting more attn on zk, or isit simply cos he's trying to treat me better, to assure me.. but some things he do, some things he say.. they're really pretty sweet. just some things he reminds me occasionally that are heartwarming. when i forget to count my blessings, the ego him reminds me to count himself. haha.

he just added me on friendster, n im alr thinking it isnt a good idea. i guess he expects me to feel nothing seeing his pic w her on friendster? im trying la huh? if my 'single' profile is alr probed by my frens, i dun think i want them to view his. haha. if this is the assurance from him, i really got a hell lot to learn about self assurance. his actions n words dun tally.. now i know why i feel so.

dear, i know u'd read this, but im not asking u to remove the pic, neither do i want u to. that's ur freedom n ur own discretion, so i really dun want u to change anything abt it. just that im glad i know. =)

as for the first para, why this entry started off sweet n ended on that note, my emotions fluctuated yarh? i think i've learnt that words are just words. i may believe them one second, be swooned with them in another, but ultimately, words dun last. nahh, maddie doesnt believe in promises, oaths, words and futures... no more.