do i still think he's not over her?
yes
do i still think we're not meant to be tgt?
yes
do i have faith in this r/s, in us?
not really
am i able to believe him and his words?
im not too sure

blame it on my low determination, softheartedness. just hated to see him cry. hated the fact that i made him cry. couldnt bear to leave, but i forced myself to. in the end, gave in n went back to see how he was. dammit, i just cant be more strong can i? all he did just made me bu she de to leave him alone. i dunno if its his tactic or what, but things are back as though nothing happened. for the better or the worse, i've no idea. thoughts still running thru my mind. n i still think im so weak. i cant stand this side of me. he makes me smile, he makes me laugh, he makes me cry, but so what? im really quite sick of him saying that he doesnt care for her, and then all i see all i know proves otherwise. his explanations then become excuses, then become lies. sigh.. im not thinking too much dear. im just being sensible here. if u think im sensitive, i wont deny.

i wonder if this is right.. or am i making a wrong move again... feeling damn lost.