baby, do u realise u've never bothered to explain to me whenever the issue has to do w ur ex? reason being, u still love her. but u know u cant be tgt with her. u still care, and she still holds that place in your heart. took me long enough to figure that out. but at least now i understand.. im not in any way blaming you, i just wished that u were honest to your feelings, honest to me. u may say im no substitute, but i know i'll not be the one who'll be the first in ur heart. someone else may be able to do that, but i know it wont be me. one thing i hate bout u is tt u nv live up to ur words. once, twice, thrice.. sooner or later it'll start to sink in, it'll start to hurt. cos what u say isnt what u mean.. cos what u say u feel isnt what i see.. but u're always so happy go lucky. its a double edged sword. u get over things quickly, u dont bear grudges. but when it comes to serious stuffs, u may treat it too lightly. that's what i love about u.. u make ppl happy, u brighten up others' lives, u're feministic but i dont mind being the 'man' in the r/s. i wish i were that magnanimous i could cont turning a blind eye, waiting for u to finally get over her, hoping that one day i'd be the only one u cared for n loved.. but im not. im not that big hearted when it comes to love. cos i know i really love you, all the more i cant embrace this. its been 10mths or so, more than enough ample time for u to recover, for u to let go or forget what u need to. as for living up to ur words, i've no idea if its just ur character flaw or its just that u dun take the things u say seriously, and i read too much into it. if u're wondering why im saying all this, isit pms or paranoia, it isnt. its cos i've a bad habit of using Internet history to go back to previous pages. and every single day, u check her blog. if u love her and care for her, pls make an effort to go back to her. im sure she loves u too. i wont keep someone by my side cos he makes me happy. i'll rather let him leave and be happy. understand?