if i could just ask anything and everything without censoring:
why isit that i have to find out instead of him telling me?
why isit that he agreed to have the pic taken?
who is she to him now...?
why cant he be clean bout it?
why does his words sound exactly like siyuan's?
i dont mind if he's concerned bout her, read her blog etc, i really dont mind.. but cant he be honest bout it?
if he were to put himself in my shoes, would he feel my pain?
if he doesnt like me having a meal w sy, what is this about a pic w her? double standards??
disappointment, heartache, jealousy, or what is that crapped up feeling in me... i dunno.
he's not over her is he?
i dont like guessing games. but i dont believe in promises anymore. i dunno what the heck i want.

if i were to censor all that:
i trust him cos i love him. but i know that trust is waning.