zk may be right to say that sy doesnt deserve to have me by his side when he's going thru all this. but i cant bear to leave him in the lurch just like that. its just too... cruel. seeing him, knowing he's facing this all alone. i've been there, n it feels like shit when u're all alone. i was with him (technically), but he wasnt there at all, when i needed him the most. shd i give him a taste of his own medicine? sighs. i'll get soft hearted n start showering concern msges. acting cold blooded isnt my forte. he may have the heart to abandon me at that pt in time, but i'll nv have the heart to abandon him, anytime.

zk once said he was afraid to lose me. i dun understand why. cos i always thot, i was more afraid of losing him...