why isit that he appears when im upset or frustrated? and... it never happened that way in the past. fate just likes to play pranks on me. how weird for him to msg me n ask right away, "are u okay?". its like he expected me to be troubled, when i havent said a word. telepathy? doubt so. it should have stopped short when we broke up. din feel anything, except that i vented quite alot on him. well, it was a convenient outlet.

at times like this, i really hate the fact that i depend on dad for money. for the family, for my studies. if only if i could support myself. he wouldnt let me move out n he wouldnt give me freedom. wtf. 3 mths of studying for 2 or 3 weeks of freedom? is that even a reasonable deal? i dunno. dun think i have much of a choice. except to agree to the 'no stayover rule'. damn.