think im hearing n thinking too much for my own good, as usual. gotta believe in what my own eyes n ears n heart tell me. not to start going paranoid over hear-say. not to doubt him, not to doubt myself.. feel like sucha dumbass to have cried in front of him lah. n it isnt even him who made me cry. i was crying for myself, for my cowardity. yea im afraid, scared, terrified of any guy that would lie me. cos i will always tell myself that it isnt true. always choose to believe blindly. when i fall in the end, tt's when i fall flat. n its not only happened once or twice.. it always happens. its either that im extremely gullible, or guys just love to cheat me. some fear, some insecurity within that i can never get rid of. sighs. some scars cant be erased.