i dunno if this is for the better or worse for kai, but im still choosing to let things go. as much as dear doesnt agree, as much as im risking whatever's at stake, i dun care. the liking for kai has died off. the very moment he tried to force himself on me, i knew it was gone. he wasnt who i knew. too bad. i just meet bastards sometimes. but if given a chance, he might just change. tt's why the chance now.

i might not see things in zk's light. i may be too judgemental to say that his rxn is childish. the word he used might just be right. he's a lil more vicious than other guys. i dun know him well enough... not yet perhaps. one thing im glad is that we can talk things out, for now at least.. rollercoaster ride sorta r/s may be emotional, memorable, but they're tiring. n scars will not fade as easily as u wish for them to.. i love this baby.. a lil more each day.