havent written a proper letter in eons. n this letter's for kai. writing to him feels like im writing to... a pen pal. someone who seems to know me well, but actually, not well enough.

got awoken by his voice, telling me he had to go to camp. telling me how he didnt want to go to camp. gave me a fuzzy hug when i was half asleep. with my eyes closed, the action of him covering me w the blankie, covering my eyes w the doggy, giving me a peck on the lip b4 he left for camp.. its sheer bliss. havent felt loved like that before.. never ever.. n i guess, only he can make me feel this way... love him to bits, but i nv know how to express it. these lil things, really make me feel that he cares..

kai's incident.. i stood up for kai cos i thot he would change since he apologised. seeing zk get worked up, i dunno whether to be upset or to smile. im upset cos i dun like the fact that zk scolds kai all the vulgarities n what's not. but i'd smile cos zk's worked up over me. stupid as it sounds, but yea.. if zk bothered, i shd make that lil effort to make him feel better huh?

amanda's leaving for US tmr. hopefully we can still write or email each other. =) i'll miss her. its sad how the adults split us apart like that.